How did I start Rezgu Pinkles? A little bit of me
One day it
just happens. You realize that your current life does not satisfy you, although
everything looks good, family, friends, work, home. But still something's
squeezing your heart when you think about what are you doing with your life.
You just get up, go to work in a snooze
mode, and all day you just make plans what will you do when you will return
home. But when you do you just don't have any energy ...
For it's very
hard to spend all day in some other women's shoes, because when you come back
home it's really hard to get out of them. And then the thought hits you. You
can stand up for yourself. Is it really that hard to earn that small amount of
money that the others are paying you? But you need an idea...
And then your
husband doesn't buy you a lamp.
You go to the store with your almost minimal salary
and look at the prices of the lamps. It‘s almost half of your salary. I would
probably still buy it, because it is very beautiful. But my husband is quite
stubborn on the question. And then, a person starts to think how to bypass the
system here, maybe go through your parents cellar, but that stuff is still not
fashionable. Maybe buy something that has already been used. But there’s
nothing good on the internet. And then you DIY lamp in the browser and there’s
some interesting stuff. And you your research.
I loved interior
design my whole life, and I endorse it when I can. I check on the tendencies
now and then. And here comes the natural pieces in interiors. Simple, warm and
beautiful. And one day my relatives comes for a visit and gives us some ropes
that they are making. And I just fell in love with it. The natural cotton ropes
were so ... pure and soft and beautiful. And then I begin to think what can I
do with it and how can I cover my whole worl with it. And then I go back to my
search and write "DIY lamp from rope" and then the world opens, then I
start creating a couple of boards on Pinterest.
And then one
evening you return home and think to yourself that it's time to take action,
but you‘ve invited some guests over it‘s not polite and stuff. But then
something breaks inside. So when you‘re sitting with your friends you bring that
rope, find the longest electrical cord you can find (not avoiding my husbands
help with the electricity), make huge pot of tea, turn on Spidermen and just start.
And you do it. And still, friends do not feel unapreciated, though you are not
sitting at the table, but on the ground. The puppy is also cheerful, he chases
the yarn from time like a huge cat that he is. And later that night you hang up
the first lamp, and friends take pictures and praise you. And you smile. You
smile like you haven‘t smilled in a million years. And some part of your mask
drops.
And then you
go back to work again and feel like the mask is gluing itself back to your face again every day. And then,
one colleague, says, "Are you really in your place in life?", you say
"Maybe" when the answer inside is just screaming. You go home and talk
to your husband. And he agrees that you should leave your work and start
something on your own, you would be happier he sais, you just need the idea. Then
you talk about it with your parents and the world collapses, becouse they don‘t
understand you. They do not support you. You come back home, shed a couple of
tears then go to your parents the second time and you don‘t ask you just say
how it‘s going to be. And you start.
You quit your
job. And then you’re free. And you start to over think, maybe you’ve done the
wrong thing. But you do some yoga, some horse riding, some meditation and you
start believing again. And you begin.
And you fail.
You sit in a fair for three days and sell absolutely nothing. Not a single
thing. I cry a bit more when I come home and keep on going. The last day of the
fair I pick myself up and write new plans, new goals, new ideas. And just hope
that nobody during the holidays will ask you how has it been. But they do. They
ask. But you know after the tenth time you’re just not ashamed anymore. Just a
couple of people succeed right away, you should give yourself time.
And I do. I do
more. I think more. And after three months I sell the first product. And it’s a
wonderful feeling. And you put even more of yourself. Because I don’t want to
wear a mask again, I just can’t anymore.
And that’s how
more of me looks like. Thank you very much if you have read this through out. I
thought I would just write some funny light story, but I myself have never
wanted to believe in those plastic marketing rules. I want to believe in human
connection. And I hope that it will succeed in this creative path. And I hope
you will let me.
Yours sincerely,
Deimantė Meilutė-Ganusauskienė